What Makes Desperation Drive You Crazy?

Have you just suffered a severe blow to your self-esteem, and you feel lower than low? That can trigger an earlier trauma to your belief in yourself, make you feel humiliated, and frantic to do anything to feel better. Extreme desperation can drive you crazy.

Totally “out of your mind.”

When you’re this kind of desperate and feel rejected, you can’t imagine anyone cares about you. You live on the edge. Constantly looking to be unwanted, thrown away ... not mattering. If you believe that’s what’s happening, your confidence crashes more. You feel hurt.

Not good enough.

That’s what drives you crazy. Crazy with the pain of feeling crushed. Humiliated. You wanted something, you thought you had it, and now, all you can see is rejection. You can’t stand it.

The problem is. You already have a voice in your head that treats you with scorn for needing or wanting anything. You’re supposed to “need nothing.” That’s what you tell yourself. Now you feel really bad because you needed something and it didn’t go well. 

That voice calls you a “failure.”

That voice doesn’t want you to be vulnerable: “Don’t let anyone in. Don’t let anyone get to you enough to make you like them. Or love them. Or need them.” Because then, you might feel there are competitors for that love. And that makes you crazy-desperate. Because. You believe they will “win.” So, you want to eliminate those competitors. Somehow. Mostly, you’re desperate to get rid of the psychic pain you feel when there are others you believe are better than you.

What’s the answer to the fight with that humiliating voice in your head that tears you down? Therapy with a trauma-informed therapist. You don’t have to feel not good enough anymore.  

Want another take on going crazy with desperation? Click here for my post on No Other Choice.